My precious

I'm pregnant.
Yes, i'm having a baby.

Skrg ni dah lebih 3 bulan. Tapi..... Masih tak larat sgt.... Skrg ni pun rasa nk berhenti keja ok.... Cuma bertahan sbb nak kena kumpul duit untuk baby.....

Oh, tak-tak.... Aku bukan bunting pelamin. Hahaha.... Lepas nikah tu sempat period sekali je, lepas tu jem, hm...

Oh, mula2 baby bukan dlm perancangan. My plan nak berhoney moon setahun ni. Next year baru nk pikir pasal baby, but tak pakai mana2 ubt perancang pun, sbb ingat awal lg. I just keep remind my hubby suh careful. Duh, pandai sgt kan.

Masa tak period bln tu, trus beli upt kit dan check. Ada double line tp 1line tak clear. But memang dah rasa naluri tu memang preggy. Masa tu tak tau nk ckp pe, memang down. Yeah, we were struggling at that time:
1) baru je selesai kenduri di umah hubby
2) baru je masuk umah (sewa) baru
3) brg2 umah tak beli apa lg
4) hubby tak kerja lagi coz dia berhenti keja sbb susah sgt nk cuti kenduri kahwin masa kerja dgn kompeni lama dia

So, bila tau preggy (masa tu around 4-5weeks), me memang down sgt. Hubby lak yg happy lebih2 padahal patut dia yg risau pasal takde income.... Masa tu memang takde mood sgt plus tak larat plus buasir lak...
Lepas konfirm memang tak bgtau sesiapa. Sampai la dah over 2 month.
Bukan tak suka kehadiran baby ni, bkn tak syg kt dia mcm yg di sangka2 sesetengah org, but i have a lot to consider: money, my career, and most important my baby welfare <-- I really afraid that i'm not ready to be a good mother.... Working condition or environment aku skrg ni not suitable for me to be a good mum:
1) working 26day a month
2) off day tak tetap hari apa, bergantung pada jadual but basicly 4day a month
3) annual leave sgt sikit. 14 hari setahun
4) working hour 8-5 but need to stay back if have meeting, work or problem
5) i'm handling chemical like poison, herbicide, insecticide, disinfectant
6) i have zero info about motherhood- takde kesabaran, takde pengalaman, tak pernah berkeinginan untuk belajar

So, right now, i'm thinking to change my career. Rasanya skrg ni masa yg sesuai..... For my baby. For me. So hubby, please please please.... Please settle down fast.... So i can start thinking what is the best i can do for our baby....
-> full time housewife?
-> working from home? Any suggestion
-> apply job with government?